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It may be the last ... I don't hope for anything much. But can i just wish for a little surprise ?

Don't know la ... why nowadays so easy get mad and get emo. Maybe the monthly thingie ... but then it's not even near yet ... Seriously, the internet connection at my new apartment is getting on my nerves. We paid so much to them ... and now we can't even get any internet ! Plus ... we tried to move our old streamyx line over ... then TM told me that there is no ground line installed at the apartment yet ... so they cannot move it over !! I cannot cancel it as well because i'm still on the unipack contract ... if i cancel it ... i have to pay a penalty of RM600 !! What The Hell la ... then what they want me to do now ? Cannot cancel ... cannot move ... cannot use ... but want me to continue to pay ?! MA DE ... how not to feel pekcek la !! From my wordings, i guess it's obvious again that i'm very hot tempered already. Urgh ... It's so inconvenient la !! I want to do my research online .. i have to bring my laptop to the digital library ... not exactly...

This gonna be an emo post. Words are sharper than swords. Have you ever heard of this phrase ? It's the truth and a fact. I had a little argument with my friend, whom i can say i have always treated in my heart as a very damn good friend. But something i said made him misunderstood me. It's a minor thing. Damn minor stuff ... But then, the words that you used to reply me ... it's really very sensitive and hurtful to me. I mean like ... c'mon ... how long have you known me ? Do you think i am someone who would mean that to you ? Am i like that in your eye ? If that's really so ... i feel really really hurt. Funny you know ... i never thought i will take your words to my heart so closely. I don't know why this time you would made me feel like so. It's undeniably hurtful to me. Even if you were joking, maybe it's a little too much of a joke to me. I apologize if i really made you misunderstood me. But i never expect that from you as well. Maybe it...

For the lonely, broken and lost souls ... A farmer was riding his horse with a wagon behind him carrying haystacks. It was winter and the weather is freezing. Halfway on his journey back home ... he saw this woman shivering in the cold. As he approach her, he saw that she has a baby in her arms. He quickly asked her to board his wagon to save them from dying in the cold. As they were on the way, the woman was hugging her child tight in her arms. She started to become frozen a little by little .. and her mind started to go into the sleeping state in which if she actually close her eyes and sleep, she would be frozen in her sleep and die. When the farmer saw that she is on the verge of dying from the frostiness, he stopped the wagon. He got down and pulled the baby away from the woman, then he left the woman by the road side. He drove away without the woman. The woman was frantic. She forced herself to get up on her feet. Desperately trying to take a step .. and another step ... gras...

Dear Lord, I have a little prayer for you. I want to help him get through his hardship as much as i can. I do not mind how hard it is for me ... as long as i can put a smile to his face. I pray for him everyday when i wake up and when i go to sleep. I could cry ... thinking of how suffering he is inside. Sometimes he can be very stubborn ... It's because he has his own ways of dealing with things which some may not acknowledge. But dear lord ... do not put him through so much test. Have mercy on him. Make him strong .. make me stronger to be able to support him. when he needs me. I ask that you may give him a better life than he had. We do not ask for much ... but we just need enough. I humbly put myself before you lord that you may answer my prayer. Amen.

Hmmm ... feeling emo. i don't like this feeling ... go away !! Am i the ONLY one feeling like this ? *sigh* i just hope today pass by faster ... don't judge me ! It's not easy forgetting something ... you have once cherished so much in your life that ... you would give up anything for it. Leave me be .. d emo-ing will pass when the day ends. i just need to find something to occupy myself .. from thinking of all kinda craps !

你知道... 歌曲的影响力量有多大吗? 在什么时候听什么歌 会有不同的影响力... 人家说 ... 心痛时 听疗伤情歌, 可以治疗受伤心灵的伤口 屁啦 ... !! 心痛时 听疗伤情歌 只会越听越痛 ! 仿佛每一句歌词 都在唱着你的心思 一句一句的刺进心里。

Something has changed within me. something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing. too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts close my eyes and Leap . I think it's time ... to try and defy gravity. I AM defying gravity ... and YOU won't bring me down. I'm through with accepting limits. Just because someone says they're so. Some things i know i cannot change ... But until i try, I'll NEVER know ! Too long i have been afraid of, Losing love i guess i've lost. Well, if that's love ... it comes at much too high a cost ! I'll still be defying gravity. No matter how much it would cost me. Don't even think for a moment ... that you could bring me down.

Hey All ! I'm Back ! i know ... i haven't been gone for a long time. hahaha ! what i meant is ... my OLD self is BACk ! Not gonna let anymore stuff pull me down. I'm regaining myself ... slowly. I'll be back to my cheerful self in no time. MARK my WORDS ! I just have to stop thinking about what had happened recently. So ... I'm gonna occupy myself with a lot of things. Because when you are busy ... you won't have time to be sad. ^_^ My CheckList : Equity assignment due date 14/7 Land Law Midterm (3 topics) 16/7 Law and IT Midterm 21/7 Company Law Midterm 23/7 and ... i haven't DONE any of these !! So i'm gonna OCCUPY myself with work from now on ! Posting something New in replacement for all those gloomy post i had for the past few days. I had lunch with my coursemates one day. Then we went to this Hailam Kopitiam in the New Jusco Malacca. I found something which made me ... missed home ! It's called HaiLam Fried Mee. But back in my hometown, this ...

A happy-beat song ... for the ones with a broken heart. i've been dancing to myself in the room with this song the whole day. It feels so good. Those emo songs are KILLING me ! On the floor of tokyo or down in London town to go with the record selection and the mirror's reflection I'm dancing with myself. When there's no one else in sight In the crowded lonely night Well i wait so long For my love vibration and i'm dancing with myself I'm dancing with myself I'm dancing with myself Well there's nothing to lose and there's nothing to prove and I'm dancing with myself If i looked all over the world and there's every type of *boys* But your empty eyes Seem to pass me by leave me dancing with myself So let's sink another drink coz then it'll give me time to think if i had the chance i'll ask the world to dance but then i'll be dancing with myself *********************************************** They told me ... Don't stop bel...

For 'you', i'm sorry . I didn't mean to hurt you. All i can say is ... please forgive me. T_T

Hi ... this post is especially for you. You know who you are. I just want to say thank you. Don't blame yourself anymore. I won't blame you as well. Now ... i feel happy. I feel free. I feel much better. Your honesty was the best medicine. It cured me. I'm wishing you all the best. You are still the special friend. Since the past, till present and in the future. thanks for the memory.

Do You kNoW ... how lonely it gets when they are so many ppl around you ... but there is no one that you can actually talk to. how sad it is when you say that you have lots of friends ... yet you can't find one to share everything with. how hard it is to keep everything to yourself ... and not being able to let it out. how agonizing it is to want so much to help someone you care and love, but you CAN'T EVEN help yourself ... and you are blamed for not lending a helping hand. how stress it is to live up to people's expectation on you ... because they believe that you can ... but even you cannot believe in yourself. how devastating it is when the lies that you are telling ... are so real that even you believe that those lies are true ! how alone and wronged it gets ... when the whole world misunderstands you, and ONLY you know the REAL truth and you cannot explain it because you want to protect the person you care for. All you could do is cry alone in the room for hours ... ...

i have only 1 thing to say .... YEAH HOO !! EXAM'S OVER !!

My exam week has started and i am only done with my 2nd paper but i am already half dead. This year, i don't know what "wind" my lecturers have ... coming out questions different than past year exam papers ! It's already so many chapters to cover and YET ... still gotta make our life worst! We're just students ... we're just human being ! There is a LIMIT !! I have another paper tomorrow and haven't even touched a single topic ... Not only me ... But all my other coursemate as well ... All in zombie mode now. We spent so much effort on today's paper but ... haihz ... sad ! No heart ... really no heart to study tomorrow's paper ! I feel like swimming in the blue ocean ... snorkelling with the fishes ... *sigh* what a life ...

I'm a cat lover. I'll go crazy over cute kittens ... I'll go mad seeing a cat acting cute ... I'll go insane when a cat acts vain towards me ... Cats just turn me on ! Hahaha ! I was browsing through some cat pictures in google web and this picture came up. An idea came from the picture of the 2 kittens. "Friend Knows No Colour" which is SO true. Do u need my explanation ? If you do, 1 simple word is enough to describe you ... . . . . . . DUMB ! ^___^

A typical sunday = wake up late, eat late brunch, browse web and play online games to spend the day. If over-bored, then i'll start blogging. Exactly what i'm doing now. There's a few topics for me to post today. Not very interesting, but that's my life. It can be very interesting and sometimes dull and sometimes full of challenge. I'm still trying hard to get use to it. Indeed, there are some problems recently which made me very very down, and i don't get to share it with my "important person". But i know i am strong enough to get through all these by myself. I am not weak ! i am STRONG ! i BELIEVE i can !! although, sometimes it really hurts when you realize that you are all alone in facing all these ... O .... K ..... stop with the mourning, blabbering and complaints .... i'll continue with my blog posts.

here i am ... back to my long gone blog page What have i been doing ? Other than being busy during the beginning of March to battle all my midterm examinations, i was out for a short trip towards the North of Malaysia. Then, when i thought its time to be double time more serious about my studies, some events came up that turned my life forever ... i wouldn't be the same again ... trust me. Sometimes, i really would like to tell God : can i have the power to throw away all the Bad stuffs in my life ? Well ... I can only be sure that God has a better path ahead for me ... which of course is good for me depending on how i take it. There is always a reason for things to happen in the course of our life, no matter happy or sad. How we look at the way things go determine what kind of life we would live in ... We choose to be what we are today. There's only one thing that needs no reason and explanation ... Love . Something came into my mind during these times ... There's already ...

Back in Malacca ! I don't know what to post as title ... so ... ... ... Not sure why i'm sooo Moody. The sudden feeling of stress and tension is getting on me. Thinking about the whole load of coursework i need to face, and the exams that i need to pass ... i feel sick and tired. Without you around, everything seems dull. Your presence motivates me to move on. Now i realize how important you are in my life. Taking you out of my life is kinda impossible for now. Struggling with my moody and blue feelings now. I have 8am lecture tomorrow but i'm still too tired to fall asleep ! Hey Mr Sandman, did you missed me in your list of "to put asleep" ? Or was my mind resisting your magical sleeping sand ~ A lullaby song might help ~