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Do You kNoW ...

• how lonely it gets when they are so many ppl around you ... but there is no one that you can actually talk to.
• how sad it is when you say that you have lots of friends ... yet you can't find one to share everything with.
• how hard it is to keep everything to yourself ... and not being able to let it out.
• how agonizing it is to want so much to help someone you care and love, but you CAN'T EVEN help yourself ... and you are blamed for not lending a helping hand.
• how stress it is to live up to people's expectation on you ... because they believe that you can ... but even you cannot believe in yourself.
• how devastating it is when the lies that you are telling ... are so real that even you believe that those lies are true !
• how alone and wronged it gets ... when the whole world misunderstands you, and ONLY you know the REAL truth and you cannot explain it because you want to protect the person you care for.

All you could do is cry alone in the room for hours ... waiting in agony for the pain in the heart to go away. Then wipe away the tears and continue laughing and smiling with everyone around you hoping that no one suspects anything.

The worst thing is ... none of the pain is gone no matter how hard you try. You only come to realize that you are so lonely and helpless ... and those you hope and wish are there ... won't be there.

At this point, leaving ... forever ... sounds like a very comforting idea. But, a person who is so afraid to face death ... won't ever want to do that. They will rather choose the hardest way. That is to stay alive ... with all the troubles ... hoping in silent that one day ... all of these would be over.