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I had a dream last night. I woke up straight away and blog about it here because i don't want to forget about it. It was a very romantic and wonderful dream although it ended sadly. It started when i find myself at my old house in Bintulu. Most of my relatives were around ... i still can't get what's going on at that time. Everyone was preparing and rushing to go somewhere. I just stood there watching them fussing over everything. Then i just followed them towards a very grand hotel. When we reached the hotel, then i realize that it's my wedding!! What a shock!! To Whom am i getting married to ?!?! I was escorted to a room to be dressed up and make over. The dress was suited just for me. The right size and length ... it was so beautiful. I dazed over how i looked in the mirror. Never have i seen myself that good looking before!! Not in real life at least. Maybe that's why they call it DREAM. Hahaha ~

你知道... 歌曲的影响力量有多大吗? 在什么时候听什么歌 会有不同的影响力... 人家说 ... 心痛时 听疗伤情歌, 可以治疗受伤心灵的伤口 屁啦 ... !! 心痛时 听疗伤情歌 只会越听越痛 ! 仿佛每一句歌词 都在唱着你的心思 一句一句的刺进心里。

Something has changed within me. something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing. too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts close my eyes and Leap . I think it's time ... to try and defy gravity. I AM defying gravity ... and YOU won't bring me down. I'm through with accepting limits. Just because someone says they're so. Some things i know i cannot change ... But until i try, I'll NEVER know ! Too long i have been afraid of, Losing love i guess i've lost. Well, if that's love ... it comes at much too high a cost ! I'll still be defying gravity. No matter how much it would cost me. Don't even think for a moment ... that you could bring me down.

My first time to Ajisen Ramen shop at New Jusco Malacca. Mr Neo suggested it coz he is in a GOOD mood he says. I didn't eat because i already had my dinner of 4 piece of Bread + 1 plate of Fried Golden Mushroom Rice at Johnny's Restaurant with my roomy, Joesky. Fried Golden Mushroom Rice : Then ... Something interesting happened. Mr Neo and Ms Selene decided to PK over who can last longer eating the VOLCANO RAMEN ... which was shown at the Menu to be the Spiciest Plate served with 4 chilli label.

I saw my Idol Blogger, Miao, post about dreams becoming reality. Then it HIT me. I've got to do something COOL and DARING before my youth ends ! If not ... I'm gonna regret being YOUNG !! This particular EVENT ... is gonna be the starting point. http://www.nescafe.com.my/kickstart/home.htm FYI, i signed up for it. I choosed from the 15 dreamjobs the 3 jobs : travel writer, travel guide and NGO worker. Definitely MY dreamjobs. Actually i wanted to try Celebrity PA and Wedding PLanner as well ... But i dun have the confidence in handling it yet. Hahaha .. NGO worker is my First priority. The next step is to send in a video of yourself telling the judges why you want that dreamjob and it's suppose to be OUTSTANDING. I'm cracking my head of what to record. After that, you will battle with other contestant in a 24 hour physical and mental challenge to be the one to get the dreamjob. You are granted 3 months internship with the related company and whether you can be take

Hey All ! I'm Back ! i know ... i haven't been gone for a long time. hahaha ! what i meant is ... my OLD self is BACk ! Not gonna let anymore stuff pull me down. I'm regaining myself ... slowly. I'll be back to my cheerful self in no time. MARK my WORDS ! I just have to stop thinking about what had happened recently. So ... I'm gonna occupy myself with a lot of things. Because when you are busy ... you won't have time to be sad. ^_^ My CheckList : Equity assignment due date 14/7 Land Law Midterm (3 topics) 16/7 Law and IT Midterm 21/7 Company Law Midterm 23/7 and ... i haven't DONE any of these !! So i'm gonna OCCUPY myself with work from now on ! Posting something New in replacement for all those gloomy post i had for the past few days. I had lunch with my coursemates one day. Then we went to this Hailam Kopitiam in the New Jusco Malacca. I found something which made me ... missed home ! It's called HaiLam Fried Mee. But back in my hometown, this

怎么办 ... 越来越冷淡了 ... 已经不像从前了。 what should i do ? you are giving me the cold shoulders. We're not anything like before anymore. 聊的话题，越来越少了。 平时通话时间已经很短， 现在变得更短更简洁了。 our topic is getting lesser day by day. and Your calls are getting shorter. 每当我以为没事了， 你的一句话， 却让我鸦雀无声。 “好了... 我要挂了... 因为...你会让我想起不开心的事情。” Everytime i think that we are ok, Just one sentence from you is enough to shut me up. "all right ... i'm hanging up ... talking to you would only remind me of the pain." 我没要求你一定要原谅我。 我也不敢要求什么。 我的心很慌 ... 每一天都过得战战兢兢。 I don't hope for forgiveness. I don't even dare to wish for anything. My heart is so flustered now ... I'm going through everyday gingerly. 我真的觉得很无助... 这种感觉很恐怖... I'm feeling helpless ... And it's scary. 而且，面对这么多人 ... 我只能伪装自己。 因为 ... 一直重复着同一首伤心曲子 只会让自己更痛。 Facing so many people around me ... All i can do is pretend. Because it hurts to repeat the same sad song all over and over again. 有谁知道 ... 在那灿烂的笑容背后， 藏着多少的委屈和悲伤。 who would know ... how much pa

A happy-beat song ... for the ones with a broken heart. i've been dancing to myself in the room with this song the whole day. It feels so good. Those emo songs are KILLING me ! On the floor of tokyo or down in London town to go with the record selection and the mirror's reflection I'm dancing with myself. When there's no one else in sight In the crowded lonely night Well i wait so long For my love vibration and i'm dancing with myself I'm dancing with myself I'm dancing with myself Well there's nothing to lose and there's nothing to prove and I'm dancing with myself If i looked all over the world and there's every type of *boys* But your empty eyes Seem to pass me by leave me dancing with myself So let's sink another drink coz then it'll give me time to think if i had the chance i'll ask the world to dance but then i'll be dancing with myself *********************************************** They told me ... Don't stop bel

For 'you', i'm sorry . I didn't mean to hurt you. All i can say is ... please forgive me. T_T

Hi ... this post is especially for you. You know who you are. I just want to say thank you. Don't blame yourself anymore. I won't blame you as well. Now ... i feel happy. I feel free. I feel much better. Your honesty was the best medicine. It cured me. I'm wishing you all the best. You are still the special friend. Since the past, till present and in the future. thanks for the memory.

I have nothing to post today ... So, let me introduce my "friends" in my room =) TA DA ! this is my C7. Everytime i feel like making a wish, i will talk to him. =P CIANG CIANG !! this is zHu zHu !! I always hug him to sleep ^^ JENG JENG !! this is nGa piG ... always neglected by me ... hahaha ! Coz it's a puppet tissue holder =) DANG DANG ! this is dA xiOnG ! When i'm sad or happy ... he's the one that comforts me ... with his smiles ... and teddy dream scent ! =) *bling bling* !! ThE tRiO !! Loving them ... =D and .. Lastly ... ... My Guardian Angel ^^