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此刻的我 ... 真的很需要你。 我需要一个可以依靠的肩膀 ... 一个什么也不会问的 ... 可靠的肩膀。 让我哭个够 ... 哭累了... 就睡着 ... 可是，我不知道这个人应该是谁 ... 此刻的我 ... 真的很需要一个人的空间。 我需要自己静一静 ... 自己一个人旅游 ... 就这样一直走 ... 一直走 ... 因为我已经不知道下一步该踏哪里了 ... 此刻的我 ... 真的很痛。 无法形容的痛 ... 哭笑不得的痛 ... 一种心中被用力开一枪的痛 ... 此刻的我 ... 根本不想被质问 ... 别问我发生什么事 ... 我不会说 ... 因为我不知道，我可以向谁说 ... 此刻的我 ... 内心很挣扎 ... 很想消失一阵子 ... 就让我躲起来自己慢慢的痊愈 ... 好吗 ? 我已经到极限了 ...

It's the open day for SM Pei Fong, Malacca. I think they were celebrating the 97th anniversary. I went around 10am, following Regina and her Brother. A few years back, i went in that school before. That time, i was representing my campus for a chinese cultural modern dance competition. Mind you ! It's national level ! hahha ... but we LOST ! ^^ This time, i really walked around the school. We reached just in time to see the performance by students. Snap 1 : preparing for performance Snap 2 : 1/10 of the audience Snap 3 : this performance is based on the theme of disable childrens. I had tears in my eyes when i see them making the sign languages and singing the very touching song. I'm still looking for that song ... i'll post it here when i've found it. Snap 4 : The Red Ribbons Performer Snap 5 : The Marching Bands of SM Pei Fong Snap 6 : TELL ME ! How can u decorate a classroom into THIS ?! Watch the next one !! Snap 7 : How ?! In MY school .. it's IMPOSSI

It's Boring ... if u ask me. That's why i am even free to take these pictures. You have to be alert all the while ... which is tiring if you have 6 hours lectures in a row ! Here's what i do during lecture ... and how my lecture room looks like ... this is one of the lecture room. I have 4 hours in a row in this same room. this is the 2nd type of lecture room. I love this lecture room. because it's easier for me to look at the slides as i don't have to keep STRETCHING my neck from behind. Hahaha ... It's a friday morning. I wasn't usually suppose to be having class at this time. So ... got tired and .. SnaP SNaP sNaP ! hahaha ! Ignore the SM pei fong .. i was so blur that i tagged it there ! =__= These are the pigeons that are making their nest just BESIDE the seat i'm sitting. So .. i was actually watching them ... making the nest. What a lovely husband and wife ... Hahaha ! Me .. listening very attentively !! AS IF .. !! hahahaha !! Still got one m

I never had a wishlist before ... that's because i never knew what i really wanted ... Then, while i was surveying for my friend's birthday present ... I've finally got my OWN wishlist ! ^_^ I never liked perfumes. But this particular one ... totally changed my speculation. Harajuku "Baby" fragrance !! The smell is sooo nice that ... after the promoter sprayed some samples on my hand ... i kept sneefing all the way home !! Hahahaha ~ I REALLY need to save money if i want to get THIS perfume ! CASIO LTP 2069 ! My friend told me that Casio is consider as a cheap brand .. aww come on ! I never minded as long as that thing suits me and i LIKE it ! I didn't really like watch with steel wrist but THIS ... i simply love the design of that 3 round circles inside ! The main point is that the watch is slim enough to look nice on a girl's wrist and it's NOT over girlish. There are other colours as well ... pink, black, dark purple, white ... all are NICE ! haha

Do You kNoW ... how lonely it gets when they are so many ppl around you ... but there is no one that you can actually talk to. how sad it is when you say that you have lots of friends ... yet you can't find one to share everything with. how hard it is to keep everything to yourself ... and not being able to let it out. how agonizing it is to want so much to help someone you care and love, but you CAN'T EVEN help yourself ... and you are blamed for not lending a helping hand. how stress it is to live up to people's expectation on you ... because they believe that you can ... but even you cannot believe in yourself. how devastating it is when the lies that you are telling ... are so real that even you believe that those lies are true ! how alone and wronged it gets ... when the whole world misunderstands you, and ONLY you know the REAL truth and you cannot explain it because you want to protect the person you care for. All you could do is cry alone in the room for hours ...

Yeah .. unbelievable right ? Me as a model for photoshoot ? Hahaha ! My friend, a photographer, just needed a temporary model to shoot his theme : a puppy. Since he can't find a sudden replacement, so i'm his best choice for the moment. It's not like i'm his First choice. I was called because he can't find anyone. Hahaha ! I'm not sure when i get to see those pictures, because it was actually a failure. The puppy was so moody and 180 degree different from itself. I guess it was scared and didn't know us well. The owner did not follow us along. So ... it acted as if we were DOG-napping it and kept very quiet. So we only managed to shoot a few pics which were quite ok. I had some pictures taken myself with the puppy while we were on the way to the photoshooting ground. Here's some preview : The main character. I think her name is ... "missia" ? or "missya" ? She belongs to a 6 years old girl. So, u can guess how the name comes about. A

A special friend treat me to a very expensive dinner ! WooHoo ! It's the First Time i step foot into that expensive restaurant ... Thanks a lot ... I appreciate it. It's as delicious as it looks ! London Mixed Grill ... very worth it ! *sorry for the disturbing noise in the pictures ... my phone camera is soo lousy when it comes to taking night pictures.

While having my holiday back in my hometown ... I've taken some very nice and beautiful pics that i simply love. Just to share some of them here, enjoy : Sunset at Bintulu Waterfront Random People fishing at Tg Batu Beach. Note : the aunty in the middle is such a GOOD fisher ! P.S. my feet ! =P Jeremy + Emily are the shadows in the picture. That's all for now loves ~

After going for a short hike at the tg batu hash area, we decided to play at the beach for a while. Oh wow ... really felt like kids again ! Those little tiny stuff are Hermit Crabs ! It's been a long time that these little creatures haven't appear at the tg batu beach !! and there were so many of them that day ... !! The sun was setting very quickly ... and the hermits were all burrowing their ways into the sand ... I tricked him into taking a picture while watching the sunset. Then i kicked up the sea water and "SNAP" ! too late for him to realize what's going on ... hhahaha !! My little lover in Bintulu ... hahaha =P the beautiful sunset ... Until next time ... i'll upload more when there is a next trip =P