无助 Helpless

怎么办 ...
越来越冷淡了 ...
已经不像从前了。
what should i do ?
you are giving me the cold shoulders.
We're not anything like before anymore.

聊的话题，越来越少了。
平时通话时间已经很短，
现在变得更短更简洁了。
our topic is getting lesser day by day.
and Your calls are getting shorter.

每当我以为没事了，
你的一句话，
却让我鸦雀无声。
“好了... 我要挂了...
因为...你会让我想起不开心的事情。”
Everytime i think that we are ok,
Just one sentence from you
is enough to shut me up.
"all right ... i'm hanging up ...
talking to you would only remind me of the pain."

我没要求你一定要原谅我。
我也不敢要求什么。
我的心很慌 ...
每一天都过得战战兢兢。
I don't hope for forgiveness.
I don't even dare to wish for anything.
My heart is so flustered now ...
I'm going through everyday gingerly.

我真的觉得很无助...
这种感觉很恐怖...
I'm feeling helpless ...
And it's scary.

而且，面对这么多人 ...
我只能伪装自己。
因为 ...
一直重复着同一首伤心曲子
只会让自己更痛。
Facing so many people around me ...
All i can do is pretend.
Because it hurts to repeat the same sad song
all over and over again.

有谁知道 ...
在那灿烂的笑容背后，
藏着多少的委屈和悲伤。
who would know ...
how much pain and suffering there is
behind that smiling face.

其实，已经有点麻痹了。
几乎没知觉的在过着每一天
好像只有肢体在做每天该做的程序
但是脑袋却停留在某个原地... 不肯动
这是为什么呢 ？
Actually the pain is becoming numb ...
It's like going through everyday without any sense at all
The body is moving and doing everyday's routine
But the mind has stopped at a point and won't move on
why is that ?

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Hahahaha ...
These are just fictional feelings.
Just trying out my translation for chinese and english.
I think i did well. *grin* ^_^