不想失望 ... 可以吗？

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刚刚练好球回来 ...
唉！今天状况非常down  ... 一点气氛都没 ...
明明再过几天就是比赛了 ...
今天也是最后一次赛前练习，干嘛一个个都无精打采？

拜托好吗 ？也许你们根本不在乎的一场比赛，可是对我来说很重要啊 ！
这个可能是我在大学生涯的最后一场 tournament 了！
我真的想要最后一场 tournament 是最风光，最精彩的回忆 ！
以后踏入社会，根本没有这种机会了！

本来以为可以开开心心的去奋斗一场，谁知道 ... 唉 ...
所有期待的心情都没了 ...
想奋斗的意志也不见了 ...

算了  ...
明明告诉过自己别对事情期望太高，因为只会跌的更痛 ...
白痴，你这次真的期望太高了 ...

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